I don’t know what’s happening, but the only way I can explain what is happening to me by claiming its a…. thirst for knowledge. I’m a 16 year old boy, in high school, and this year has been especially strange for me. This is the issue: there are moments, throughout the entire day and night, where I come up with random ideas and have to fulfill them by going to wikipedia or just online and researching completely ridiculous things. Just now while I was vacationing in Mexico, I was thinking of random words, how to translate them, how to properly use verbs and utilize them correctly, subjunctive theories, translating to french, logic, and completely ridiculous things. My short term memory is suffering extraordinarily with this ridiculous amount of dumb ideas in my head. I literally carried a pad and a pen and wrote everything down. On top of that, I CONSTANTLY forget what I want to say, what I want to do, and I have become so tired and grumpy and not me from all of this. I always have a headache and I feel really consumed all the time, I have no break at all, day nor night. I haven’t had a moment of calmness and a moment with a clean head. Even when I finish something, I still have to look up Michael Jackson’s birth date and the capital of Zimbabwe. It’s absolutely ridiculous. I don’t know what to do. Do I need ritalin? Aderol? ADD meds? is this more than ADD? OMG just now i had a thought to write in and i forgot what i wanted to say. This is scary. It’s like Alzheimer’s disease. I have nonexistent short term memory, and I was always the one with the best memory!! And after i forget something i get really stressed out and angry, and my blood pressure literally rises. THIS IS RIDICULOUS. HELP ME. WHAT THE HELL IS GOING WITH ME. I CANT FOCUS OR CONCENTRATE ON ANYTHING EVER. MY NIGHTS ARE FILLED WITH DUMB IDEAS INSTEAD OF PLEASANT DREAMS. I WAKE UP GRINDING MY TEETH AND THINKING ABOUT IRREGULAR VERB CONJUGATIONS. I AM GOING INSANE!!!!!! PLEASE BE AS DETAILED AS POSSIBLE.

thank you very much.
also I constantly have this can’t live up to my potential feeling. Even my school work suffered this year from my being so ridiculous and unable being to focus… do i need to fulfill my knowledge cravings? is the computer hurting me? do need medicine? why is this happening?!