There’s this girl who takes the train with me and her friends in the morning. The thing is, I’m a jerk to her. I totally insult her, call her fat, flat, etc. Why? Because I simply don’t care about her.

Quote from her, “He lowers my self esteem” and she grrs when I make fun of her. However, she one day revealed to me out of nowhere the problems going on in her life, and mind you, they are serious.

So I got worried and began calling her everyday, just checking up on her and making sure she was ok without saying any of that. I was just calling and making fun of her to her. I invited her to hang out several times but she’s denied all of them. She likes to stay home.

Anyway, last Tuesday was her Chorus concert. I asked her if her parents were going or not and she said no. I felt bad that she had no one to watch her so I stayed for her. She gave me her ticket after much pressuring from her friends.

Outside, it was freezing and she wasn’t exactly fully clothed so I gave her my jacket and kept her warm when we went to Applebee’s. I didn’t eat anything, However, my other friend didn’t want her tomatoes so I asked for it, but someone else got to it first. Then the girl (I’ve been talking about) says she has tomatoes and feeds me with her fork. As soon as I bite, I realize it’s chicken and not tomato, but realize just how much I was starving. She then saves her leftover pasta and gets it to go, then gives it to me.

Going to the concert, I was going to play handball for a while before it started. However, she grabbed my arm and dragged me. I blushed >.<

After the concert, she was getting a ride with one of the friends we go to school with in the morning. She insisted thatI go with her because I wanted to take the train, it was late, and she said “You’ll blame me if you die or something.”

It’s Thursday now, and she says “hey brown dude i can tell you anything right” and I sit there perplexed while she explains some other issues going on in her life. I sympathize with her, give her advice, then snap out of it a half an hour later, asking why she trusts me.

She says it’s because I don’t seem to gossip and I’m reliable. I’m just sitting here, perplexed. How can a girl trust me, when ALL I do every day is make fun of her and tease her? She says that she needs to vent with someone so that she won’t go crazy.

Why me? I make fun of her, I insult her, I tarnish her self esteem, yet she still chooses me. What the hell?

She’s been telling me her problems for a while now. Last night I came clean and confessed I care about her. She told me she likes to talk to me over the phone instead of real life because I’m a totally different person.

BTW, all the making fun of her I do, it doesn’t hurt her in the slightest. She acts like she gets mad, but it all bounces right off.