iam so sick of my life right now and i feel that i could just end it all by killing myself! i know its wrong. and always look up and think about my family and God and stuff but its just i hate it

my niece who just started high school [iam 1 grade ahead of her] told her mom that i pretend that i dont know her at school. And her mom God mad at me [this was at the begining of the year] and she told her nana and for my bday i got 10 bucks from them. And iam grateful that i got somthing because alot of kids dont get anything. but its the fact that they gave me a little because they think i was being rude and mean etc..

then she told everyone that i was making fun of the retarded kids [because of my great luck! i sat next to her during a rally and the kids below us were the ya know retarded kids sorry if thats not what you call them] and some of my family looked down on me.

then she told some people that i am a loner at school! and i dont really have friends.

and she honestly believes those things. she isnt just making them up! she just believes that they are true! and her and her mom are very close. shes perfect. pretty,4.0 gpa,comes home to fresh baked cookies, never gets introuble, goodie goodie
pissing me off! and i just wanna like back hand her.HONESTLY!

then my mom is just bugging me. she nags me about little things like
since iam on summer vacation. i do vacum twice a week, mow the lawn weekly, take out the trash, clean my room, do the dishes, put them away, wash my own laundry
and she tells me
you need to vacum when your at home since your not doing anything!

and i left the dishes in the washing machine 1 time!! and she told me i never do it.

i want a macbook pro really bad so i can edit videos! but i cant sell my laptop on craiglist because people dont want it! haha

people for my whole life looked down on me

people dont think i can do anything
they just think iam weak

i hate it!

and my and my cousin grew up together and she just got a bf and she actually brought him around her parents. Now everyone wants me to get a gf. and i dont want one!!!! and i tell them that but there always trying to hook me up with some girl and putting a lot of pressure on me

and then i got a progress report that had
D
D
B
C
and my family like my whoooole family saw! like cousins etc..
and iam getting such bad grades because iam soo depressed right now! But i cant tell anyone so i was like
you know what! iam going to work really hard! even though iam having a hard time!
so i got a 3.0 +GPA. And people think that i just easy classes.

my mom didnt even care. she just said oh well do better next time!

iam thinking! I WENT FROM D D C B TO A A C B

iam just hating my life right now. and i feel that when my moms at work and when she comes home. iam going to be dead. because iam so sick of life. and my favorite cousin who used to tell me everything and i used to tell her everything doesnt even talk to me. like i text her and she just ignores it.

i have no one to talk to..so all of this just builds up!

i want to tell my mom..but she doesnt care shes just gonna say
i need to stop. And i care for the past 2 weeks. ive been crying at nite because iam so sick of my life.

iam 16 and a boy and i feel that if i cry infront of people there going to look further down on me

what do i do?