I remember last year, when I met my advisor, I thought she was really cute. So when I picked my classes in her office, I told her she was pretty and she kinf of giggled and said, Thanks!

So anyway, she happened to be Black. So I started emailing her because I thought she seemed cool. Her and I conversed back and forth and she would reply to my emails.

I remember I actually talked to her once about interracial dating and I vented to her about my mother. I told her that mother doesn’t approve of it. I DONT KNOW WHY I brought it up with my advisor. It was probably because at the time, I had just gotten in an argument with my mother about it and I needed to vent.

I also asked her what she thought of interracial dating and she said she would date a White guy and that all that matters to her is how the guy treats her. I just hope she didn’t say that because she felt pressured.

I didn’t mean to make my advisor feel uncomfortable. I don’t think she felt uncomfortable, maybe just a little shocked.

So, when I was off for Christmas break last year (Winter 2008), her and I talked more just about interests, movies and music. She would reply back and stuff.

I asked her if I was interfering with her work and she said I wasn’t.

So anyway, when I went back to school for Spring registration, I noticed her eyes had looked terrible and she looked kind of depressed.

Maybe I was bother her after all?

So as a result, I stopped emailing her because I didn’t realize how I was making her feel. It’s been over a year since I’ve emailed her now.

I still think she seems like a nice person, she says hi to me whenever she sees me at school. She’s like, Hi! in kind of a high, flirty(however you describe that) tone.

The scary thing was though, I remember when I went to her office for Spring registration, there was a campus security guard present in the office. I just hope he wasn’t there because of me!

The funny thing is too, I went on Facebook and I realize she has a Facebook page. I looked on the pages that she’s a fan of and I saw a page for a place that teaches POLE DANCING!!

You believe that?

Well technically, they teach other aerobics and stuff but I still thought it was funny and kind of sexy.

So what do you guys think? Was I a bad person or creeper for emailing her so much?

If she says hi to me at school, I’ll say hi back. But I’m afraid to start a conversation with her out of fear making her feel uncomfortable.

I also told her that I prefer to date Black women.

I don’t feel like that so much anymore though.

I’m still attracted to some Black women but I like all women really.

I’ve thought about adding her on facebook too. I don’t think she knows I have a facebook.

I notice she talks to me more when she’s not with one of her female coworkers. She kind of clams up when she’s with one of them. But talks to me when she’s alone.

I remember last week, she was showing some guy around I was walking down the hallway and she was like Heeeeey! in a flirty voice and I said hi back and smiled.