I think I have social anxiety disorder. I have a therapist and my mom is looking for a psychiatrist. My teachers at school know about it. But no one understands. I’m under a lot of pressure because there are project presentations coming up. Don’t get me wrong everyone is VERY supportive. My family cares about me a lot and they are doing everything to help me. I want medication but it won’t come in time to help me deal with the presentations and tomorrow I’m supposed to have these dances ready for dance class and I only have 1 out of 3 of them. I’m having suicidal thoughts again and I really don’t know what to do. Today at school a lot of people in my class were talking about me behind my back and I don’t want to face them again because that’s one of the things I’m so anxious about ( i have social anxiety disorder i think). The anxiety is becoming unbearable. I have depression from the anxiety. I don’t know how to get through all of this.

And I know this isn’t going to happen but what I wish i could do was miss the rest of the school year while I get help. But that’s impossible because 1. my mom wouldn’t let me do that and 2. I don’t want to get left back because I’m a great student. I’m getting high grades on my tests and I have a bright future. Missing school can ruin that. This is one of my most important school years too (8th grade)

Is there anything else that I haven’t tried that can help me?